Korn’s Brian ‘Head’ Welch recalls overcoming addiction, finding God in new doc

Guitarist Brian “Head” Welch was at the prime of his career during the late ‘90s and early 2000s when Korn helped define a completely new genre of music known as nu-metal, becoming one of the most successful acts of its day. But behind closed doors, the Grammy-winning rock star was losing himself to drugs and … Continue reading “Korn’s Brian ‘Head’ Welch recalls overcoming addiction, finding God in new doc”

Guitarist Brian “Head” Welch was at the prime of his career during the late ‘90s and early 2000s when Korn helped define a completely new genre of music known as nu-metal, becoming one of the most successful acts of its day.

But behind closed doors, the Grammy-winning rock star was losing himself to drugs and alcohol.

Welch walked away from Korn – and a $23 million dollar record deal – in 2005 after he found God. The bold move helped him become free of his addictions, but the single father still needed plenty of saving.

The now 48-year-old and his daughter, Jennea Welch, are the subjects of a new Showtime documentary titled “Loud Krazy Love,” a shocking tell-all about his complicated relationship with the now 20-year-old who was also privately battling her own demons. It features in-depth interviews with the pair, with Welch’s parents and also with his bandmates.

Welch told Fox News filming technically began in 2005, after MTV reached out about creating a spirituality show. But when the project fell through, Welch kept the footage until 2013 when the idea of a film exploring his life with Korn was presented to him. However, it was clear to Welch that the real story he was ready to share was the one that even his die-hard fans didn’t know about.

In the film, Welch revealed that despite having it all – fame, fortune and a child he adored – he was still suffering from unhappiness.

“I think the root was the self-hatred that was going on due to unresolved issues growing up,” Welch explained. “I didn’t have the best relationship with my dad. I was bullied in school, picked on. I remember the first time of just trying to connect with girls. It was just rejection after rejection. So I always felt ugly. … Every time I looked in the mirror, it was like, ‘You’re not good enough.’ ‘There’s always someone more popular.’ ‘There’s always someone more gifted in music.'

“… I feel like I was too sensitive to things. And they would get to me. And I would let them just tear me down. And no matter how successful I got later on, I just felt like, if people really got to know me, got close to me, they wouldn’t like me. That’s the lie I believed about myself. And so I would just mask it with drugs and alcohol for years and years… It wasn’t until I found my faith that I learned to love myself.”

Rock group Korn attends the 16th Annual MTV Video Music Awards on September 9, 1999 at the Metropolitan Opera House, Lincoln Center in New York City. (Getty)

The Hollywood Reporter revealed Welch’s addictions became so severe he would hide his crystal meth in vitamins, deodorant – whatever was handy – while touring with Korn. Welch also shared on Matt Weiss and Theo Von’s “Allegedly” podcast that he once sent 1/8 ounce of crystal meth via Fed Ex.

Jennea had an unconventional childhood, one that involved hitting the road as a toddler alongside her famous father on tour.

“When I think about being on the road, it’s a lot of bittersweet memories honestly,” Jennea told Fox News. “We had so much fun. I was able to do whatever I wanted, eat whatever I wanted and just hang out. … There were promiscuous girls, parties and stuff. And I knew that it was wrong. But honestly, it was just what it was.”

But Jennea also endured loss. In the documentary, she vividly described moments in her young life when Welch was absent as he traveled the country with Korn. Then her mother, also dealing with addiction, left the pair behind. Jennea admitted it wasn’t easy to relive those memories of being alone.

Brian Welch with his daughter Jennea. (Courtesy of Sean Berry)

“It was difficult,” she explained. “I think there were some sad things that as a kid I didn’t quite get. Because he wasn’t there and my mom wasn’t there. And I guess when I became older, it affected me a lot.”

When Welch converted to Christianity, he was determined to always be by Jennea’s side — but his struggles were far from over. He was no longer packing arenas and his finances were rapidly dwindling. Bad business deals also taunted Welch. Still, his faith endured.

“I was forewarned, I should say,” said Welch. “You go through trials, sometimes heavy ones. Sometimes it looks like God’s abandoned you, but not for any reason. [It’s] to make your faith grow and to see that no matter what happens, you come out OK. … It’s all for your good. It’s all for love and it’s all for making you a strong person.

“So when I lost my house, when I lost financing, when I lost cars and people betrayed me, it was just like the spiritual working out. I kept working hard to try to get things back on track and to see that I’m not going to need the band. The money is not who takes care of me anymore. God provides for me. … I come from a background where if someone is rough and tough, you handle things physically. People betrayed me and you just want to choke them. But you choose forgiveness.”

Brian Welch and his daughter Jennea in 2007. (Getty)

During her teens, Jennea found herself drowning in depression and anxiety. She resorted to cutting herself in hopes of eliminating a pain that refused to vanish. Jennea even considered taking her life.

“When I was 14, I was really open about my depression, anxiety on [social media],” she explained. “I was really open because I didn’t know how to talk to other people about it in a healthy way… I guess what made me want to share all these things [in the documentary] was the fact that so many other kids struggle. I talk to girls every day who are 14, 15, who battle with those things and battle with family dynamics. I just feel for them, and I feel like because I’m doing so well and I have so many healthy coping skills now, it would also be selfish not to share how far I’ve come.”

With the help of Welch, Jennea received intensive counseling. The Phoenix New Times reported Welch enrolled Jennea at a Christian boarding school in Lafayette, Ind., called Awakening Youth Academy. She credited the new environment for giving her a sense of normalcy.

“Boarding school helped me so much because I got to live just a normal life with some girls, some of my best friends,” said Jennea. “When I was younger, obviously it was difficult because there some things I was missing out on. [But] all that stuff has been restored.”

Brian and Jennea Welch in May 2018. (Getty)

Jennea added she has reconnected with her mother over the years.

“We talk every once in a while, like every few months,” said Jennea. “We’re not super close, but I love her. She’s amazing and she’s been through so much.”

After nearly a decade apart, Welch reunited with Korn in 2013. Rolling Stone previously reported Welch received Jennea’s blessing to rejoin the group and pursue his passion for music.

As for facing temptation with drugs and alcohol, Welch said it’s not an option.

“I am done,” he stressed.

Brian Welch during a filming of "Loud Krazy Love." (Sean Berry)

As for drinking, Welch admitted in his 2016 book “With My Eyes Wide Open” that there was a time where he couldn’t resist the bottle.

“I shared that I did start trying to drink again,’” he said. “I was like, ‘I’m not an alcoholic. After 10 years, I can have a couple of glasses of wine.’ And then that turned into binge drinking for a month or so. So yeah, I tried it and I was like, ‘I can’t do this. But before I quit, I’m gonna drink a couple more weeks.’ So I did not drink again.”

These days, Welch is perfectly content being sober and bonding with Jennea.

“I just don’t like it,” said Welch about his past vices. “I’d get these horrible hangovers where I’d feel massive, massive depression. So that helps me not drink. It’s just not for me.  … I’m still a very practicing spiritual man. And I’m a Christian in the fact that I have a personal relationship with Christ. But there’s a lot of Christians that don’t understand me… That’s not going to stop me though. To me, God is love and God loves everybody and takes you as you are.”

“Loud Krazy Love” premieres Friday, Dec. 14 at 10 p.m. on Showtime.

Elvis Presley helped raise cash for USS Arizona Memorial at Pearl Harbor in the 1960s: report

What does a rock 'n' roll legend have to do with a historical Pearl Harbor memorial?

Legendary rock star Elvis Presley helped make the USS Arizona Memorial at Pearl Harbor a reality in the 1960s.

Presley performed at a benefit concert that raised more than $54,000 for the memorial fund on March 25, 1961, Biography.com reported. He also made a separate donation, the report said.

Plans to create the USS Arizona Memorial took shape in the 1950s, but by 1960, less than half of the $500,000 needed was raised, the publication reported.

Presley's manager, Col. Tom Parker, thought a benefit concert would provide positive publicity for the singer, who was honorably discharged from the U.S. Army in 1960, according to Biography. Presley entered the Army at Memphis, Tenn., on March 24, 1958, US. Army History said.

Shortly after the concert, Hawaii's House of Representatives passed Resolution 105 to thank Presley and Parker for their services, the report said.

Presley's actions drew attention to the memorial fund, when more money from the public and private sector arrived, allowing the USS Arizona Memorial to be dedicated on May 30, 1962.

The famed rock 'n' roll musician visited the memorial for the first time in 1965 and placed a wreath at the monument, the report said.

FILE: A view of the USS Arizona Memorial that also shows the ship’s wreckage. (National Park Service)

Presley's other connections to Hawaii included the movie and song "Blue Hawaii," in 1961, and his "Aloha from Hawaii" concert on Jan. 14, 1973.

This year, the USS Arizona Memorial has been closed since May due to damage to a loading ramp, but is expected to reopen in March, the Los Angeles Times reported.

More than 900 bodies could not be recovered from the sunken ship and still remain onboard, the National Park Service said. The USS Arizona also remains submerged below the memorial.

Amy Lieu is a news editor and reporter for Fox News.

Motley Crue drummer Tommy Lee blasts rapper Travis Scott for allegedly copying stage design

Motley Crue drummer Tommy Lee accused hip-hop star Travis Scott of ripping off two of his set ideas.

Lee, 56, shared two videos of Scott’s performance on Wednesday. The first featured the “Astroworld” rapper sitting in a chair while he makes a complete spin on a roller coaster track. Lee compared the action to himself spinning in a circle and performing on the drums during one of the band's tours.

“Just found out this f— idiot @travisscott or someone on his team ripped off the 360 AND The Crüecifly! WTF!!” he wrote in the scathing Instagram post. “Get an original idea bro…(swipe to see who did this s— first) BRB there’s more …”

Lee then shared another clip of Scott traveling on the roller coaster during one of his performances, while comparing it to one of his own performances. He claimed that Scott ripped him off twice.

Lee then said Scott was using the same company Motley Crue did to design the set. He used that fact to back up his claim that the rapper stole his ideas.

“And the plot thickens! After I and our production crew created the 360 and Crüecify, We hired a company called SGPS in Las Vegas to create it,” Lee said in a tweet. “WELLLLL GUESS WHO'S DOING TRAVIS'S SET DESIGN???? F**king SGPS! So all u motha—- tellin me I'm not right can f–k off."

Scott’s lawyer defended the “Astroworld” set in a statement to TMZ.

“Tommy didn’t invent the concept of a roller coaster on stage and there’s no legal basis for his accusatory outburst,” the lawyer said. “The actual creator and owner of the system has granted Travis all rights to use that equipment to complement his original stage design.”

Ryan Gaydos is an editor for Fox News. Follow him on Twitter @RyanGaydos.

Bruce Springsteen reveals mental health struggles: ‘The wheels can come off a little bit’

Bruce Springsteen revealed his battles with mental health issues in an interview published Tuesday.

Springsteen, 69, told Esquire he began to worry about his own mental health when his father, Doug Springsteen, was diagnosed with schizophrenia before his death in 1998.

“I have come close enough to [mental illness] where I know I am not completely well myself. I’ve had to deal with a lot of it over the years, and I’m on a variety of medications that keep me on an even keel; otherwise I can swing rather dramatically and … just … the wheels can come off a little bit,” he said.

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Springsteen said he had a breakdown at age 32 when he was on a road trip from New Jersey to Los Angeles. He was in Texas at a fair when he lost it, according to the magazine. He said he still doesn’t know why he felt the way he did that night.

“All I do know is as we age, the weight of our unsorted baggage becomes heavier … much heavier."

— Bruce Springsteen

“All I do know is as we age, the weight of our unsorted baggage becomes heavier … much heavier. With each passing year, the price of our refusal to do that sorting rises higher and higher,” the “Born to Run” rocker said. “Long ago, the defenses I built to withstand the stress of my childhood, to save what I had of myself, outlived their usefulness, and I’ve become an abuser of their once lifesaving powers. I relied on them wrongly to isolate myself, seal my alienation, cut me off from life, control others, and contain my emotions to a damaging degree. Now the bill collector is knocking, and his payment’ll be in tears.”

He also discussed a second breakdown after turning 60, which he estimated to last three years. He said he never contemplated suicide, but admitted “I once felt bad enough to say, ‘I don’t know if I can live like this.’”

Springsteen also touched on feeling unsure about who he is as a person.

Bruce Springsteen performs at the 72nd annual Tony Awards at Radio City Music Hall, in New York, on June 10, 2018. (Michael Zorn/Invision/AP, File)

“Bruce f—ing Springsteen is a creation. So it’s somewhat liquid — even though at this point you would imagine I have it pretty nailed down. Identity is a slippery thing no matter how long you’ve been at it. At the end of the day, identity is a construct we build to make ourselves feel at ease and at peace and reasonably stable in the world," he said.

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He added, “But being is not a construct. Being is just being. In being, there’s a whole variety of wild and untamed things that remain in us. You bump into those in the night, and you can scare yourself."

Springsteen also touched on politics and had a scathing take on President Trump, saying he has “no interest in uniting the country.”

The singer is set to close out his one-man Broadway show next month. The show will air on Netflix starting Dec. 16.

Ryan Gaydos is an editor for Fox News. Follow him on Twitter @RyanGaydos.